We all experience times when we are under a lot of stress and pressure, especially when it comes to achieving things we want. With that, we sometimes lose a little motivation because we are so focused on achieving that one thing that we sort of get off track and don't take care of ourselves or push ourselves like we usually do... Well, I've been going through that lately. I normally wouldn't post this sort of thing, but this is part of my journey to becoming a registered dietitian. I'm still anxiously waiting to hear if I've gotten matched to a dietetic internship. Let me just say, my stress and anxiety levels are through the roof - I've felt like my stomach has been in my throat for the past 2 weeks! I found out last Sunday that I didn't get matched during first round matching, again. I was pretty beat up about it, but I couldn't just sit around and dwell on it - I had to do something.
The list of programs that still have spots available was released last Thursday, so I applied for just about every program I possibly could!! I'm so determined to get matched - if I don't, I'm going to be incredibly disappointed, but I will not let that deter me from achieving my goals - I knew going into this field how competitive it was. Needless to say, I've been feeling a little discouraged, but after applying to so many schools, I have to get matched somewhere, right?! I even lit some candles in the St. Louis Cathedral yesterday while at French Quarter Fest!
My family and friends have been so supportive throughout this whole process and I couldn't do it without them! Everyone has been so encouraging and it makes me strive even more to accomplish this!
I need to get my motivation back up and get back to my usual routine so I made a list (which my boyfriend constantly teases me about because I make a list for literally EVERYTHING - but it works for me!) of my goals for this week. It's proven that when you write down your goals and share with others, you are more likely to actually do it - so I'm sharing my goals for the week:
1. Workout everyday this week- even if I don't want to (I know I will feel better - I mean really, have you ever left the gym regretting a workout?! Didn't think so!)
2. Check my email no more than once an hour - not every 5 minutes! I'm probably giving myself more anxiety and adding more stress by checking it so frequently - Can you blame me though?! - I'm trying to be patient, but I just want to hear some sort of news!
3. Think positively - No matter the outcome! Everything happens for a reason!
This has been a tough journey, and I know everything happens for a reason, so I'm not giving up! I'm going to keep on doing whatever I have to do to achieve my goals - I've made it this far!